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Whole 30 – Round 2, Day 9

A really mysterious thing happened yesterday: I was instantly done with detoxing.

Let me back up a bit.

I am a 90 year old in a young persons body. I wake up early, I go to bed early. If I stay up too late, say, past midnight, I get cranky and literally get a hangover.

At the same time, last Saturday, I went to a haunted house with a few friends and had a BLAST! We stayed up late, and I was exhausted and cranky by the time I rolled into my apartment around 2:30 AM.

I woke up the next day feeling really ill. I had a headache, I was still tired, I was nauseous and achy and bloated and gross. I did my due diligence and made some homemade soup, and tried to eat well (when I’m sick, I eat ALL of the potato chips, which I did this time too… whoops). I ended up eating so many potato chips that I fasted for the rest of the day after around 2pm, just drinking lots of water and skipping dinner. I went to bed early and was OUT.

Then, I woke up. And I’d lost 3 pounds overnight and felt great!

What the heck? Not that I’m complaining!

It just goes to show how important a good nights sleep is! The fasting didn’t hurt either!

Both yesterday and today are supposed to be ‘my pants are tighter‘ days, but I’m counting myself lucky that I hit that phase a couple of days early. If I had to guess, I’m in the ‘hardest days’ phase. Despite my recent indulgence in potato chips, the fact of the matter is that I’m hosting for my monthly visitor and FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS HOLY CHOCOLATE PLEASE. Probably not the best timing, starting my Whole 30 so that I’d be dealing with cravings right when I’m at the hardest part of Whole 30. But at the same time, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel now. If I can make it for the next couple of days, I should be golden!!

I’m feeling a little worse for the wear today compared to yesterday, but that is mostly because I tried a new yoga studio last night and aggravated my back a bit. I’m seeing my chiropractor today, so hopefully he will be able to tell me that I just used my muscles in a weird way, and there isn’t something wrong with my spine. The muscle soreness had been getting a lot better over the weekend, so I have a feeling that I just twinged it in my sleep initially and it’s taking a little while to heal.

Other than my back, though, I slept great and got a lot done yesterday! *pats back and feels accomplished*

Thanks for reading everyone, and good luck with your Whole 30 challenge!

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Whole 30 – Round 2, Day 2

I’m not sure if this round of the Whole 30 challenge is easier or harder than the first one. The good news it that my body hasn’t been completely broken by a week’s worth of drunken, potato-chippen tirades. That being said, last weekend, my boyfriend and I went to a bed and breakfast for a romantic weekend away in which I ate 3 things I don’t normally eat: dairy (LOTS of cheese, butter, cream), alcohol (3 glasses of wine in total), and SUGAR (creme brulee, so good).

One of the best things about eating a paleo diet, and forming these good eating habits is that maintaining my weight is effortless. So, once I know that I’ve gained 5 pounds, I know exactly what I need to do to get back to my maintenance weight and stay there (as long as temptations don’t abound). I’d been pushing off my second round of Whole 30 for a few weeks longer than anticipated, so after this past weekend, the gig was up.

Today, on Day 2, I am experiencing:

  • Horrible nights sleep
  • Exhaustion
  • Headaches
  • “Fat Face” – Even though my face doesn’t look fatter, I feel like my face is swollen
  • Extreme Body Odor
  • Lower Back pain (probably due to poor nights sleep)
  • Tooth Pain – either from sugar/alcohol secreting through my teeth with the dentin (yep, that happens), or from clenching my jaw due to stress

Pretty much par for the course. Still, it sucks.

According to this handy Whole 30 Timeline, I’m in the ‘Hangover’ phase, and it only is going to get better from here (note my sarcasm). I think what really sucks the most is that it only takes eating poorly here or there, probably only 20% of the time, to make me feel THIS crappy. I mean, when I ate like that all of the time, I didn’t feel ‘great’, and I had a lot of excess weight, but I didn’t have constant ‘hangover’ like feelings of unwellness and torture. I suppose this is just part of becoming an adult, and my body not being able to handle the stress it could when I was 20, but it pretty much blows.

This time, though, I’m going to kick my whole 30 up a notch! And by kicking it up a notch, I mean taking my salt DOWN several notches. I am a salt kid. I love salt. I salt the crap out of everything. I wouldn’t be surprised if I consume upwards of 6-8000 mg of sodium a day, and despite that being not ideal in general, I noticed an interesting phenomena:

Salt makes you eat more.

Take for example pistachios. The so salty your lips start to crack variety. They taste so good to me that I would regularly eat a full cup (in two half cup servings) of them on top of my lunch at work.

On a whim, I purchased the 50% less salt kind and brought them to work. I poured myself a half cup serving, and started cracking away. At the end of the half cup, I noticed that I DIDN’T want another half cup of those nuts. By reducing sodium by half, I reduced what I ate by half.

I don’t want to go hyper low sodium, don’t get me wrong, but I want to start by not salting my meats. I SALT them when I salt them, like can barely taste the meat anymore. So, by cutting out any salting that I would do of my meats, I am cutting my salt intake in half right about there!

As a scientist at heart, I had to do an experiment on this, to see if salt was what was holding back from breaking my fat loss plateau.

I’m making plans to reduce my sodium intake, and here are some places where I hope to reduce sodium:

  • Don’t salt meats
  • Keep eating raw foods
  • Purchase lower sodium or salt free nuts/seeds
  • Avoid high salt foods, like potato chips and restaurant fare

Exceptions to the rule:

  • I must put some salt in my homemade soups – otherwise they are super bland and virtually inedible to me. It is worth the slight bump in sodium in order to get all of the goodness of homemade bone broth soup
  • I also must salt my homemade pasta sauces a little. I will keep the sauce low salt, but pasta sauce is what I use when I really need a bump in flavor.
  • I will use commercially made salsa (as long as there are no artificial ingredients or sugar) and taco seasoning. Taco salad is my go-to healthy comfort food. I need something to fall back on if I am just hating the Whole 30 plan.

This is going to be really hard for me, but I appreciate anyone who takes the time to read this! Thanks for reading, and stay healthy everyone!

First Hot Yoga Class!

Spoiler Alert: It was hot and I’ve never sweat so much in my life!

Due to the unfortunate nature of my hiatal hernia and it’s insistence on sliding back up through my diaphragm, I’ve been at a loss for workouts to do while it heals. The workouts I usually like to do, like HIIT or dancing, typically involve a lot of crunches and other ab work that tends to aggravate the problem. But I know the real problem: I’m having so much fun that I basically lose control of my movements and inevitably push myself too far. I talked with my chiropractor about giving yoga a try, and we agreed that it focuses on control and slow movements enough that it would be a good workout regimen for me to try while I heal.

The problems?

  • Though I genuinely like yoga, it is becoming more and more clear to me that unless I have to leave my apartment, there is no way I’m going to work out. It is just too easy for me to plop down in front of the TV and never get back up.
  • Yoga gyms in my area are CRAZY expensive. Like $175/month for hot yoga gyms, and $90+/month for regular yoga gyms expensive. They have incentives that you can sign up for that bring the cost down a bit, but the minimum cost per month for someone like me at a hot yoga gym would be about $141/month. It is very expensive!

While I was at a friend’s house last weekend, they had to cut our gathering short in order to go to their yoga gym, which they both clearly loved. They told me the name of it, so I looked into their studio to find that they offer an unlimited 30 day trial for $49.

Then I went back and forth as to whether I wanted to give this a try now or wait until next month.

Then I realized I was procrastinating… again.

So, the day after hearing about it, I signed up for my first class last night with my friends there!

I know it sounds obvious, but it was really hot. They say they heat the room to only 95 degrees or so, but it had to have been at least 80% humidity in there, because it felt much hotter!

Like a noob, I brought my water bottle into the studio, thinking I was going to have time to drink it – well, I didn’t.

Thoughts:

  • #1 – I’m super proud of myself for going at all! I made the conscious choice to get off of the couch and work out, which doesn’t happen often.
  • I was impressed with my ability to keep up with my friends. They’d only been coming for about 3 months, they said, but they were definitely trying some of the trickier poses. I paced myself and didn’t try those poses on my first day, but for all of the other rapid pace pose changes, I was able to keep up and with good form!
  • So much sweat. All of the sweat. Within two minutes, I was completely covered in sweat, but for the most part felt okay – no dizziness, which I was worried about.Β  I was really glad that I hydrated beforehand, but I clearly need to hydrate more. I ended up with a bit of a dehydration headache this morning.
  • Toward the end of the workout, I was feeling a little nauseous, but I attributed it to detoxing or my hernia more than anything, and it was never significantly bad.
  • There were parts of the workout that I couldn’t do, like crunches and inversions, but I used that time to do active rest or other poses while they inverted. I’m glad I didn’t do those, since I think I was able to keep my hernia down!
  • I need two towels!! The one I brought wasn’t big enough for my whole mat, so I mostly used it at the top of my mat so that my hands could grip the terry better than the slippery mat. Next time I will bring another smaller towel for my feet, since they were a wee bit slidy toward the end.
    • They apparently sell mat grips, but I’m going to wait to invest in one of those until I’m sure I want to stick with this for a while!
  • Despite the workout being pretty tough and me leaving drenched in sweat, I’m surprisingly not that sore today. I made an effort not to over exert myself, and that paid off!

Final thoughts:

They currently are having a 30 day challenge, where they challenge their yogis to work out 30 times over 30 days. Even though I’m coming in on day 2 of the challenge, there’s no way I could fit in some doubles to make up the time! However, I really enjoyed this experience, and I’m grateful for my friends to be there with me on my first class. While I still have unlimited access, I plan to go every day that I don’t have another workout planned though! The class was really fun and relaxing, and it felt really great to sweat the toxins out!

Thanks for reading, and try a weird workout, friends!

Whole 30 is going… okay?

I’m officially entering my second week of my personal ‘whole 30’ challenge, in which I am cutting out the crap and keeping in the good stuff. So, to make this past week’s events a little more readable, I’m going to break them down into categories.

Dietary

The Whole 30 diet is ‘simple’ to follow, but not necessarily ‘easy.’ That being said, I’m trying to find balance in my carb intake. Normally, I can eat a very low carb paleo diet, and not really crave carbs at all. I don’t know if these cravings are coming from my candida infection or if I genuinely need them to detox my system. It seems like the cravings are sleeper cells where I’m fine eating low carb for a few days and then WHAM I find myself making 2 large sweet potatoes’ worth of sweet potato fries (in healthy oils, of course).

I’ve also been finding that I have an absurdly strong craving for avocados, like ALL of the time. But weirdly, avocados by themselves still don’t really appeal to me taste-wise. So, I’ve been eating a TON of guacamole, and my cravings almost always manifest as a need for a Chipotle salad with lots of guac. I know avocados are great for you, so I gave into these cravings realizing that my body must need something in the avocados. But the cravings got me curious – what is in avocados that I need so badly? Turns out, Avocados are really high in Vitamin K, which is typically found in dairy (which I don’t consume). Also, because vitamin K is a fat soluble vitamin, and avocados are loaded with healthy fats, they are the perfect vessel for vitamin K assimilation! Also, avocados are rich in potassium, magnesium, calcium, and other trace minerals that I’m probably deficient in!

I have had a few cheats though, typically in the form of potato chips, as well as I am trying to figure out if I have an egg sensitivity. More experiments on myself are in order! I also spent some time to make up a whole bunch of homemade, sugar free pasta sauce that I can use to make all kinds of zoodles!

My portions are also still very wacky (sometimes okay size, sometimesΒ  waaaaay too much food), and I’m having a difficult time nailing them down. That is something I definitely want to focus on this week if I can.

Detox

Detoxing has not been easy. In fact, it has been the worst it’s been in a very long time. My skin is breaking out, I’m still bloated and inflamed, and my emotional state has been ALL OVER THE PLACE. Granted, a lot of things always seem to go wrong at once at the worst possible time (i.e. now), so I’ve had a lot of additional stresses on my plate that I’m not used to. Now that a couple of them have been taken care of, I’m hoping that I will be less of an emotional wreck this week than I was last week. Seriously, there was a lot of spiraling out of control, and I’m just grateful that I didn’t say or do anything irreversible that I regret. Fortunately, it manifested as me just being whiny and mopey for a few days – irritatingly so, but at least I didn’t hulk out!

I’ve been trying to take regular detox baths to help my skin and pull out toxins. These seem to be helping a bit, but not as much as I’d like, which leads to the next topic:

Fitness

Last week, I was pretty busy running around trying to get things done, so I didn’t have time for workouts and relied mostly on baths to detox and relax some stress away. It became pretty clear this past weekend that that wasn’t going to be enough sweating to get this crap out. So, I pushed myself pretty hard and worked out last Thursday with a game of racketball, and on Sunday with the Core Speed DVD from Focus T25 (one of my favorites!). I had a great time doing the Core Speed DVD and am going to try to make sure I do something physical at least three times a week. I’m planning to do a yoga DVD tonight, since the Core Speed DVD left me pretty sore and I need to stretch!

Naturopathy

I visited my naturopath on day 3 of my challenge and we decided to switch things up after being on the same regimen of stomach acid supplements, enzymes, and probiotics designed to fight candida for about 7 months. It became clear that my candida infection was not going away with these probiotics anymore, and since I was still on such a high level of stomach acid and not feeling any warming sensations, there was another deeper problem.

I am now taking a supplement to restore my gut lining, since that is probably contributing to my systemic candida infection. I am also taking an herbal yeast detox instead of a probiotic one, as well as the strongest enzyme formula she has to help me better digest food. I’m hoping that eating right and taking these supplements heals my gut lining and makes the candida go away!!!!

This week

This week, I’m going to try to focus on:

  • Portion control
  • Determining a good carb balance
  • working out 3 times and sweating
  • Keep eating cleanly
  • Sleep
  • Reduce as much stress as possible
  • Yoga to rein in emotional turmoil

Thank you for reading everyone! Stay healthy, friends, and good luck with your whole 30 challenges!

Post Vacation Sugar Detox!

I’ve been back from vacation for about a week now, and I’m definitely noticing a dramatic increase in the amount of sweets I’m craving since going on vacation. I’ve just been feeling really lethargic too, as well as little weird things, like mosquitos attacking me like piranhas when they normally would turn their nose up at me when I was low carb. Also, I notice that I have a lot more BO when I eat sugar (which is almost the opposite of what you think would happen, since sugar is so sweet!). I think I’m going to start a sugar/carb detox today to try to get back to where I was (where I didn’t crave sugar or carbs at all).

Simple Sugar Detox:

  • Cut out all grains, even gluten free ones
  • No more starches apart from the small amount of sweet potato in my emergency soups (for when I don’t feel like cooking)
  • Try to avoid eating out as much as possible
  • Limit fruit intake to 1/4 cup of blueberries in my morning smoothie
  • Only 8 oz of well fermented Kombucha (definitely not as tasty, but more potent and less sugar!)
  • MOAR VEGGIES
  • Try to cut down protein servings while I’m at it
    • I’ve noticed that when I increase my carbs, I tend to get hungrier, so my meat portions are getting a little larger. I want to bring them back down.
  • Try to take a tablespoon or two of coconut oil a day
  • Go to zumba class and get my fitness on! If have time, visit sauna afterward. Sweat equals good!

If you’re feeling the heavy weigh of sugar cravings, feel free to join me!! Thanks for reading! Stay healthy, friends!

Momentary Soapbox on Sugar and Alcohol

Hello everyone! I’ll try to keep this brief, but this past weekend has made me feel sluggish, puffy, and tired. First, Halloween was last Friday, so there is sugar out the wazoo all over everywhere. Also, one of my best friends got married this weekend, which means rich foods, alcohol, and sugar – all weekend long. Also, yesterday was my birthday, and (though I refused to drink) I did give in and eat a lot of food, and a lot of sugar.

I woke up this morning 5 pounds heavier, after having nightmares, tossing and turning, and waking up early and not being able to get back to sleep. I’ve felt like I was in a fog for the past 5 days, ever since I’ve been either eating sugar or drinking alcohol. When I finished dessert yesterday, I was so overcome with exhaustion that I could barely make it home, brush my teeth, and crawl into bed.

I never realized how much sugar is like a drug. It’s delicious, addicting, and, I admit, has an emotional hold on you. During Halloween, it was torturous to smell the candy and keep myself from eating it. I remember how good those Reese’s peanut butter cups taste and feel in my mouth, and it still kills me to have the leftover candy lying around in the house. Sugar is everywhere, and it is nearly impossible to completely avoid.

I’m also in my mid twenties, so it is nearly impossible for me to go out and not order a drink. There is considerable social pressure to drink, and if I choose not to drink, the people around me may tell me that I’m ‘not fun’ or ‘they don’t want to be drinking by themselves’. It’s very powerful, and even though I really don’t like to drink, I have had many a drink because the social situation called for it.

We have a problem, people. If anything has been made clear to me this past weekend, it is the simple fact that sugar and alcohol (after a large break from having them in the system) are detrimental to one’s health. It needs to become more socially acceptable to choose not to drink or to eat unhealthy foods without judgement.

Also, we need to let go of ourselves more often. I made choices to eat foods that I probably shouldn’t have, and I need to forgive myself for those choices. I’ve definitely learned my lesson, and am looking forward to getting my diet back on track and keeping it there!

I hope everyone takes the time to think about our society’s impact on one another. Let’s all try to be more open to other people’s desires to eat or drink (or NOT eat or drink) certain things πŸ™‚ Stay healthy everyone!

Spa Day was a Success!

Yesterday was one of those good days, and I’m really grateful that I could spend it with my mom πŸ™‚ I complain about my mom on my blog sometimes, and really, she’s not all bad. She’s my mom, and of course I love her! She’s also under considerable stress due to her job, and we can be unfair to each other when we’re stressed.

So, yesterday, I knew I wanted to have a spa day, with face masks and nice hot baths. And, then I decided that my mom could probably use a spa day too, and that we can do it together πŸ™‚

We started the day off with Activated Charcoal and Bentonite Clay masks, following the recipe here. I had to wing it with the charcoal measurements, and I ended up using 1/4 tsp of charcoal, 1/2 tsp clay, and 1.5 tsp of water per mask! I mixed it up and we slathered it on our face and neck and waited about ten minutes.

In hindsight, I wouldn’t have put this on my neck, since the charcoal was a bit abrasive, and rubbing it off left my skin on my face and neck raw and a little irritated. I was feeling the detox though!! We then followed it up with a raw honey mask (just straight up raw honey on our faces) to heal the dermabrasion, soften the skin, and give us a glow. My mom only left her honey mask on for about 10 minutes, because she’s allergic to some bees and said her face was starting to itch. I left mine on for about an hour, since she was taking a bath and I figured that I didn’t need to take it off just yet!

To top everything off, I took a bath πŸ™‚ Unfortunately, I bathed second, so there was less hot water, and I was out of epsom salts, but it was still relaxing! Besides, I take baths far more often than my mom does, so she deserved to take the hot one πŸ™‚

We gabbed and caught up while we were wearing our masks, and it was nice to just have a pleasant evening with her for a change, so slow down and take it easy. I also think it was something we really needed for our relationship, not just for our bodies! After her bath, she looked more refreshed than I’d seen her in a really long time (though maybe that was the masks at work πŸ˜‰ ). It felt good to see her like that!

Wishing everyone a Happy Halloween (or Friday!), and hoping everyone takes the time to breathe and relax this weekend! Stay healthy friends!

It Feels Good to Work Out Again

Last week was one crazy ride, leading to a stressed out, over eating, and under working out Hokie. Last Friday, I saw an article on the web for a cranberry lemonade cleanse. I hadn’t really been having good results when it comes to clearing out my candida, so I figured I’d give it a shot. It’s called the One Gallon Challenge, and it is an inexpensive relatively quick cleanse that focuses on eating right (lots of raw foods), drinking lots of water (almost always a good thing!), and sweating out your toxins through exercise and baths. Those three things are a toxin’s nightmare. I started on Sunday with Sylvia, and here is what I have been drinking daily:

Recipe for Cranberry cleanse (modified from the website due to lack of cayenne):

  • Just under a gallon of spring water or filtered water (I use my Berkey water filtration system)
  • 1 cup – 100% Cranberry juice not from concentrate (Organic is better – I found Trader Joe’s has a pretty good non-organic brand for only a few dollars)
  • 1/2 cup – 100% Lemon juice not from concentrate and with no preservatives (I was able to find an organic brand at my Giant that wasn’t too expensive)
  • 1/8 cup – Raw Organic Apple Cider Vinegar – Bragg’s is a good brand, and Trader Joe’s also had an option available for slightly cheaper. This is my cayenne substitute.

Since I started on Sunday, I gave myself a day to just let the cleanse work its magic before I began working out. I told myself this is so that I don’t overdo it and have to stop the cleanse. In actuality, I was lazy. I hadn’t worked out in about 3 weeks since I’ve been standing at my desk and walking fairly regularly, (and cleaning and moving furniture every now and again), and I figured that was enough.

Yesterday, as I was enjoying the national holiday by sitting on my rear in front of the T.V., I reached a new level of boredom. It was about 4:30, and I thought ‘I’m bored, maybe I should work out’. So, I did. I pulled out my Focus T25 DVDs, popped in Alpha Cardio, and had my butt handed to me. I pushed myself hard, and was able to do much better than I was able to do at the start of T25. I was even able to keep up with some of the non-modified moves, which made me feel pretty good about myself.

But most importantly, I sweat. And I sweat, and I sweat, and I kept on sweating for about 30 min after I stopped moving. It took a while for my body to get going – almost like my pores were clogged up with gunk, and it was slowing the sweat down. I pushed myself hard, and at the end of the workout, I was shaking with exhaustion, but I felt good. I washed all of the toxins off of my skin, and enjoyed the rest of my night.

This morning, I woke up with what felt like a dehydration headache (say what??) but what was probably a detox headache. I’m pleasantly sore, like I worked my body after a long time of standing still (or sitting still), and I’m healing. But I woke up feeling 20 lbs lighter today. I slept better, and I feel like my skin has improved considerably. I was really starting to break out, and I think working out will clear it right up (just in time for the monthly visitor).

I’ve also been taking some supplements to nourish my thyroid for about a month now. I hadn’t noticed any changes in the way I feel – until yesterday. I think working out cleared out whatever was gunking up my thyroid to help the nourishment get there! I can tell because I’ll suddenly feel way warmer after eating food, and (I know this sounds crazy), but I feel like I’m burning more energy.

And then I realized – I did Alpha Cardio on a Monday. Why should I just run through Alpha phase while I’m doing this cleanse? The cleanse is 10 days long, so I’ll try to work out every day for the rest of the cleanse (and when I don’t, I’ll at least stretch and take a detox bath), and then afterward, work out about 3 or 4 times a week. I don’t want to fall into the chronic cardio lifestyle, since I know that it eventually will get stale, I’ll fall off the wagon, and fall back into a non-working out slump.

Well, wish me luck on the cleanse, and feel free to join along! Thanks for reading, and remember to stay healthy friends!

What the heck?? Nightmares…

I’ve had really vivid dreams my whole life. Not every night per say, but at least 3 or 4 times a month, I’ll have a vivid dream in which something strange usually happens and I wake up thinking “Whoa, that was weird… but kinda cool!” Generally, the dream can involve me going on a quest with some of my friends and family, a weird scenario (the other day, I dreamed that this really rich french guy asked me to marry him – gave me a huuuuge ring! And then something happened, and he called it off, and I remember thinking ‘I get to keep this awesome ring!’ hahahaha, I’m weird), or a dream in which my brain is exploring a concept or idea – often times the source of inspiration for my books. I’ve actually fallen so deeply in love with a fictional character in my dreams that when I wake up, I actually feel like I’ve lost someone that I love. Maybe only once per year to I have a nightmare in which I actually wake up terrified and have to calm myself down before I go back to sleep.

In the past week, I’ve had utterly terrifying nightmares THREE times. The first one started out okay, and I was at school. Apparently, this was a paranormal school though, because we were tasked with what could be possessing this woman in a video. The video was taken from the husband’s perspective, and in it, the girl’s head turned around, and a weird clicking like a clock could be heard, and with each tick, her face turned a little bit more into the scariest red faced demon my brain could imagine, until her face disappeared and she just had a blank head. Then, her face exploded into a horrifying grimace and the video was cut off. I woke up and saw that red faced demon everywhere. I had to read a book before I could even get back to sleep. And when I did, I dreamed that I worked at a corrupt grocery store where the young female cashiers were, *ahem* taken advantage of violently. I was selected to be next, and I made such a ruckus that the other girls were able to escape, even though I knew it meant I would be killed.

I chocked it up to just being a bad night. Maybe I ate too close to bedtime, or something I ate didn’t agree with me or something.

But last night, it happened again. This time, I had two daughters, one was more independent, and the younger one was a little more needy. I was at work with the needy one when suddenly I hear a man screaming in one of the closed offices. When the door bursts open, three men who have been taken over by large brown bugs (like cockroaches) who were driving their bodies like puppets toward me. I was running away with my daughter and we found my other daughter, who accused me of abandoning her and then ran away on her own. We were running, surrounded by screams as people were being taken over, but suddenly everyone around me had been taken, and I had to get away, but I could only walk. The scariest part was walking away with them shambling after me, and the bugs were making the humans have innocent conversation to lull me into a sense of security. I kept going until I was surrounded, which is when I woke up.

I don’t know what is causing my dreams, but I certainly hope they stop. Sleep is so crucial when you are detoxing (and in everyday life!), and these nightmares are not only interrupting my sleep, they’re making it more difficult to go back to sleep afterward. Also, I haven’t watched, read, or done anything scary before bed in months and months. It’s just a bad idea.

Has anyone else experienced nightmares while detoxing? Am I going insane?

I’m sorry if the images in my dreams scared anyone or made them uncomfortable, as that was not my intention by scaring them. I described my dreams in the detail that I did so that you can see how vivid and real my dreams can be, and why they can be so shocking as to wake me up. Also, if there are any dream readers out there, I’d love to hear your analysis!

As always, thank you for reading! My posts will be more lighthearted from here on out, I promise!

Stay healthy!

Being Broke Sucks

… but what else is new. Lately, I’ve been torn between my lovely, lovely paychecks and a more natural lifestyle. It maybe be less expensive in the long run, but buying natural soaps and ingredients has a HUGE upfront cost. At this point, I’ve purchased pretty much everything I’d need to make most basic things: some castile soap, a few essential oils, vitamin E oil, coconut oil, baking soda, arrowroot powder, apple cider vinegar, sea salt, raw honey, borax, washing soda, olive oil, and hazelnut oil. With all of those, I can make my own shampoo, conditioning rinse, shower gel, shaving cream, deep conditioner, laundry detergent, fabric softener, all purpose cleaner, windex, toilet bowl cleaner, deodorant, face wash (oil cleansing!!), and antibacterial ointment. So far, it’s hard to say if I’ve experienced any real health changes since starting a more natural lifestyle, but I can say that the products work! I’m still detoxing (and detoxing much harder apparently!), so I don’t really feel better physically. I do feel better emotionally, however, knowing that exposing my mom and I to fewer chemicals has got to do some good in the long run!

Golly, I’m pretty broke though. I was hoping to be able to get my own place (my mom still isn’t 100% on board with a natural lifestyle, so it would be nice to have my own space that I KNOW has been cleaned safely!), but it’s looking more and more like that isn’t going to happen right now. On the bright side, I’ll be able to put the big bucks into savings, and I’ll be able to afford things like a new mattress (the one I’ve been eyeing is CRAZY EXPENSIVE) when I move in to my new place πŸ™‚

I’m still struggling to find a shampoo and conditioner combination that leaves my hair soft and tangle free but not greasy. I recently found Dr. Woods Black Soap, and that has been less harsh on my hair than the Castile soap recipe I’d been using. However, my hair is still pretty tangled and can sometimes be very greasy looking. This is incredibly frustrating, since I’m used to having tangle free hair pretty much all of the time. I’m also concerned about how I will survive the winter months without conditioner. My hair generates enough static to light a lightbulb! I’ll see if I can come up with a recipe that will save my hair, or if I will have to resort to organic ready-made shampoos and conditioners. I’d really like to avoid that since they tend to be ridiculously pricey.

The oil cleansing is still going great, despite the fact that I’m breaking out a little right now. I’m just coming off of my monthly visitor and I’m doing some pretty hefty detoxing right now, so I’m willing to forgive the break outs. I’m also trying to exfoliate my face a couple of times a week with an exfoliating cloth to see if that helps with my milia. It’s not helping so far, but I’m hoping it will with time!

Thanks for reading everyone, and I’ll be back soon with more tips! Stay healthy!